I’ll be the first to admit I really struggle with worrying. Sometimes I’ll get in such a state of worry that I think my heart will stop beating. It feels like there’s a vice closing in on my rib cage and I forget to breathe.
Clearly, I know this is wrong, and I don’t want to be this way. God clearly tells us not to worry!! Worry doesn’t change what’s happened, nor will it change what’s to come.
Matthew 6: 25-27 tells us
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? (NIV)
I’ve had almost convinced myself that this is a “genetic trait”, as both of my parents have been worriers. I truly love my parents and they are wonderful people. However, I have noticed they’ve mellowed out over the years and have calmed down quite a bit. Reality is, I think we just let our minds wonder and somehow become convinced that something is going to go wrong or turn out badly, then our thoughts just start spiraling down from there. I should really start thinking more about God’s promised to protect us, feed us, keep us under His wings – so to speak. Surely if God promised to do something years ago His promises are still good today. He’s the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.
I wonder how much worry is normal for a parent. Seriously, there is no good parenting handbook out there. It truly is a “learn as you go” experience, especially when you’re raising a kid that doesn’t think or feel the same as others. Surely, considering, I’m human God couldn’t expect me not to worry at all. But wait, that is what He expects of us.
I’ve been praying more about this more, because, I’ve decided I’d like to live a lot longer and at this rate I’m going to worry myself into the grave. I also feel my family is suffering because of it. I’m just not has happy as I can be and therefore I feel my family’s not as happy. Soon our son will be going off to college – learning new things, meeting new people, driving around town and the interstate more. Yes; I know I can not keep him in a bubble, but, I would love to try!!!
John 14: 27 says this:
27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (NIV)
I have to remember to continually pray for peace, love, kindness, and joy. To me that’s all there is to it. God says he’ll protect us, keep us and love us. What more can we ask for ?
God bless you and give you peace!!!~Bam